should i change?

nowadays, i found myself bcome very stupid oredy, i m doubted that whether my foundation result is tipu back de?though not dat well only 3.68...i found every subjects in thios course are so tough, especially probability and statistics1 and accouting. every time the result saddening me, nearly failed every time. i dunno know y when i do the tests these days, i suddenyly will feel my mind is empty. juz like the recent prob stat test 2. environment?i dunno not know. yesterday, i found a blogger, wrote on his blog, he said he find this course is so dumb, every subs to him is super extra easy dat make not much diff from foundation. when i heard this, i felt he is so boastful and at the same time, sad coz i thought 100% differently from him. i really feel i can do nothing when dealing with this subjects.i try to work hard but seriously, really cannot.juz like programming. i study but the text book did not teach much, tests, exams are 101%diff from wat the lecturer teach in class.y?is it i did not work hard in the beginning,i regrets. when i took the prob stat test 2 last few days,i found i cant do, i really wish to pass up juz like dat. i wanna give up. and now, when i study and know nothing, i really wan to give up again, and dun study anymore, coz dun wanna stress up myself living like this.wat course would i change?should i start again like beginner, study from the 1st year of diploma, continue art in utar, start other engineering course, or study in nearby college like taylor?wat course should i change by then?can i do cope actuarial science's subjects?i wish i can, as in the 1st time, i thought myself are smart enuf to do as?but y?now cannot.i seriuosly feel sad...y?m i hav the history of every phase of study hav to transfer school. i so scare now. i dun hope it is so.if not, i will be a late learner.haiz...