i am a make up pro?

hehe, i felt sp proud 2day coz i was invited to become a make up rep for dut in pj, at 1st, i was not confident, coz normally, i draw on my face and 2day is the 1st time i draw on other face. result was satisfactory although it takes a longer time where i normally used to make on myself. it suit dut, i think is another way i can further my working line if i dun find AS job in future. hope dut did not yim hei my bad drawing skil, hehe...pj, i never know utar hav studio, after i reached only saw the "studio", quite out da...and the photographer was like so hav style but cannot deny mayb his skill really good, but this called artist mode?around 8 only end the session den dinner with rodney at murni ss2. he order mee raja, nice e, i keep makan his and i order nasi goreng paprik, still pv3 the best^^ den da bao cheese nan home as my mum's supper

internship?trip?short sem?

since till 2day which left 4 more days to the due of internship submission of company, but i am still not wanted, haih...know la, result like dat, where will ppl want me, sweep floor oso yim ngo chou shou chou giok...so, if cannot go for intern, den why i hav to work so hard, nopoint, juz let it fail, haha...hence, i turn my plan into trip, instead of earning, i m wastin, hehe...perth cheap, hongkong affordable, taipei best shopplace.but talk so long, main problem is no one will free like me, hard to find kaki, so sad...i think this time oso will soak in soup泡汤！kaki a kaki, where are u???

should i drop it?

mathematical statistic what a subject, seriously hav no idea on wat it is about, like pass, i hav know that dr.wong lecturer and notes are useless,but what make this time terrible is we dun hav a great reference or text book like last time de calculus. see his face oso no confident, nex time i muz choose smart see if DR.WONG WY, juz drop the subject...how leh?how am i goin to study a 无头绪de chapters when test is comin day after 2moro... see if 2moro can catch up la, give my self 2 tests de chance, if really result very yong sui, juz dun let it 献世, but now i am sien even juz see his notes, dunno why hav so many pictures of words de?

thanks my dears

2day, 9 of us: me, hui, chu, joyce, lk, ping, yong, ka and shun + one fake foo( hui's friend) went to delicious in midvalley to hav our belated celebration on two july girl.like normal, we talk loudly, laugh loudly, act bigly. being again to be blacklisted by delicious, haha...food dere not too much but quite expensive, esp a simply drink can take around 10 bugs somemore not much choice or can say expensive till no choice, den dere we share. i oredered a homemade spaghetti added charxx chicken, not too bad but den lots of olive oil. we eat till a bit "zai", den dere we blow cake take pic...den suddely pop up my present which i dun expect them coz i told them dun need coz i din gift them tis year, is a bag, bag of my style from seed, i guess it will be expensive and need them to po fei, but den i rather hope they dun gift me den i will more on sun and not bu hao yi si. anyway, thanks them^^, i enjoy 2day and hav a great day but den dun treat me so good la, too gum dong dy~~why can i meet such good friends here, my fok hei~~^^

so itchy

dunno why this few days, what happen to my skin, is so reddish, itchy and lots of rashes, and now still dere, reason dunno...mayb my immune went bad. not strong dy. it happens to me once in a blue moon but den this time was a bit serious coz oredy fewdays, den juz now went pharmacy buy some cream and medicine, hope it goes off soon~

fsa test pre-day

i hav an orientation internship in pj yesterday from a company named pruACTION team locate at jaya33 start 2pm, howeever chunhong was unexpectedly havin the same invitation as me den we saw each other in uni den go togather. i lead him, 1st time e, actually i oso agak agak de. using duke from genting klang.actually got a bit not to say is, he drive quite slow, haha...sorry la, i dun mean to offence him. den reach den, find a place drink den only walk in. a high tech lift i saw, hav to use pass only wil it activate...den sit dere and listen , seriously a bit sien, i dun un why he said he was a speaker who earn 10k per talk, coz he make me fall asleep. den talk till 4, den they serve some tea and kuih. we 4 person den eat and talk den and sosial with the managment like, is was like a drama to me coz i hav to pretend i am very interested and talk with them, coz i felt like their job is quite sien and i dun un why the probation dere said there was so good, bla bla bla, mayb juz to promote gua...den after that around 5 something, we oredy is the last group of ppl to leave, pay parkin for 10 bugs, so expensive juz for that little hours, den after that, ch said they dunno how to way back stpk, den i oso dunno how to tell them, den ch said he know mrr2, den i lead them to mrr2 but seriously a rather more further distance. but they dunno kl road, no choice, den passing by oug pasar mlm, my favourites, den i say bye bye to them go down and buy food, around 7 jiu leave dy, i felt i so geng, coz 2dat fsa test i can still so dum ding, i somemore after eat go nap coz i know if not, one hour study oso cannt tahan, den finally till 12 den went bed, but not tired dat time juz dat sien dy, facebook oso not active, of course i hav to wake up at 5 to study, so torturing~~den end up, fail oso, coz it so hard but luckily dk4a pack till can let me copy here and der although everyone oso like no idea...

no math stat test

this week i hav no dat stress as i thought, coz math test test had postponed to nex week, i will hav to struggle more nex week rather den this week. but i will think this is better coz i dun hav to stress too much, hehe

stress this week

fsa a assignment the worst that stress me up, jason ong, the senior, he is so freakin in doing assignment and give me a bad impression where he is so serious and cannot do badly in the assignment, i hate group with this kind of ppl, i juz dun care of my marks coz marks only wat, what hav to be so stress up, ish!
tests!3 tests- risk that juz done 2day( dunno what hav i write!), and comin thursday is math stat and friday is fsa, haih... math stat( i dun feel like i hav take this course, dunno what dr wong everytime speak infront of class, mumble, prove endless, which i think no use), fsa( a course that sounds easy but is extremly extremly hard dao...application from acconting will i think), luckily public speaking presentation not this week if not i sure die ngang!mayb i will tipu the unlike ms kiren for get a fake mc, luckily i am no.15, where this week was till no.14, phew~~

17 saturday celebration

when i fetch geh, lag, ding and man from pv3 to tbr, wenchuan hse, i got my PRESENTS from them...they scare me that that is thing will pop out from the box, i really believe and shocked for the 1st time but the paper, ish! den i open, wao, is lotion and perfume, so lovely~~i like the pink perfume, yeah i got one more fragrance, where 1st year i own two perfumes fot the 1st time~this year presents are pink series and thanks to them, i like it very much although i din expresse it well, hehe...

night celebration is at look out point- gasoline with additional member from tbr-wc, hh, lun, ivan and tc. i asked whether ivan can drive but he seems like not so want, then finally we end up force him to drive.dun care! den lun one car. we got jam in mrr2 when there is accident again den we lost in pandan jaya where lun made a wrong turn. with gps , lun finally manage to find the way to look out point, i was still a dangerous place coz it was so dark although many cars drive up, luckily i din drive^^around 9.30 we reached and eat at gasoline.

five of us share, and we enjoy our food, so you wei dao and tasty, now think back oso swallow saliva...hehe, a black pepper butter chicken chop set, nasilemak rendang and portuguese seafood.ho chak!

den we hav our dining session, photo takin session(another sweat is ivan keep on ask me to take his profile pic, i dun mind to take one or two but very qi guai de is keep on ask me==!)i think my shoting is too good dy, haha, butterfly sesssion( very very big moth flying here and dere, scare me only!i dun like butterfly), blow little piece cake session, sing birthday song! session...den mai dan at 11.30 and head back. i seriously thanks my gals so much coz they are the one who consider celebrate with me, when paying the bill that time, those guy was like assuming i hav to pay for myself, so stingy!mayb is my wrong feeling or wat, make me feel that so UNman.at the end my gals pay for my part and thats the end of the day.if compare i prefer not to hav them that night but only with my gals, at least we can siok sendiri more, hehe...

17 saturday afternoon

2day macro test, sad, dunno how to do, i think fail soon, haih...nvm la after test, we have planned to celebrate with karen. we at first want to go cozy as decide by ding but coz it hasn't open the shop den we finally change the plan the wangsa walk. i and ching find the all shops, walk up and down finally on decide to go bbq chicken.den give her a surprise. den around 12.30, we dismiss and i go pavillion meet rodney. we went for a movie, predator, because i want to watch it after lag said very scary and nice.we are so lucky coz when we reached the counter, the 3.30 ticket was all sold only left the 1st two rows, den we reviewed back 2.30, the reserved was open and we manage to hav a good seats. However, after watch it, is so so only, not too bad la, coz i seriously was shocked by some scene, hehe...den after that, we find food. He really not a decisive ppl, very fan hav to think what to eat, but i force him to decide, finally we went it to get a sushi at around 5. at about 6 we went to lowyat coz he said wanna buy cooler but actually i was quite rushed but i din tell him, den i find my hd porch and he look his cooler, finaly he din buy but i got mine, after that we rushed back to lot 10 and drive back to setapak to have my celebration while he sit train back after my persuasion from melati station.

减肥有几难？

diet seriously very difficult, i hav on diet for dunno how many days?!how?i din eat lunch, drink milk. i brought milk powder to utar, and bring another bottle of water. lunch time, bancuh it juz like dat...quite mafan
result only little, i think less than 1 kg, it so pity kelian when i saw friends eatin but i can juz look at them and tell myself "ren"somemore i hv to convince them said" i am not hungry la" but the stomache is crying said" i seperately wish to eat" although utar food not nice at all...

birthday 20-10( love u my friends)

2day is my birthday, in the early morning, i oredy get lots of wishes from facebook^^i was quite proud to see many posts in the mailbox...i wear a bit outstanding 2day,set my hair till i late for class for one hour(i memang rancang to b late). very normal, i skip a class coz math stat lec is empty for me, den zw said wanna help me sign, the 1st time he offer b4 i asked, hehe...den go library study den 12 clock back to s block go for toi, as usual, half sleepin, half studyin on my own, den ding told me to go back se block to get her back her pendrive, said her asm is inside, actually i hav a bit guess dao but i dun wan put high hope, coz i dun like to b dissapointed, hehe...den seriously take pendrive den without closing my door by kuiling, weird, den i know dy, yeah~they sing song for me!and have tarts cakes, very happy coz there is song for me...hehe, i dunno what to do, park my car?juz sit and blow?finally juz leave my car wif engine on-ing and blow tarts, take pic. thought to ask lag sing song for me since she promise but den havin lab, listening attentively den i go back, sleep till half way lag and man call, yeah, " happy birthday to u, happ...to u"
the one who i lookin forward juz drop me msg, said sick wo~~i say no way, need song oso, den at night, he called and chat and haha, sing for me e...so proud!coz nvr listen to he sing, touch la, since he is havin sore throat but yet sing for me, thanks la rodney.but den actually i want u to call me again at 12 coz i dun wan to be alone dere, but den u said u wan rest den i dun dare to ask dy, hehe... friend love u.^^
den after i off my phone, joyce called, i was shocked when i listen " happy birthday ....to u", coz i was wondering who calling me is joyce or joyce?den only i know is geh de joyce, den sounds like many ppl, den who knows terrence was dere to sing with them, i was confused coz his sound really unrecognisable and a bit girish, sorry la, no offence and thanks so much, 3 of u give me the nicest song of the day, very meloding~~(like hope can record down e...), thats the day end,
my family member juz wish and give me money, i oso dun feel like want my mum to celebrate wif me coz i was like so wrong, thats all...

FIFA Final 2010 part 2

after hav a short nap in old town, i know is ugly, but den too tired dy...den man said stomache den wan me accompany her, seriously very reluctant to stay in coz smelly, den she gives me the feeling is like wan me to stay inside she said outside dangerous???den a while later, ding oso said stomache, both blame oldtown food not hygenic, den ding comes in, i hav excuses to out dy, haha, so happy, juz said" u two take care both of urself la", den out for a walk, den after them come out, they said wanna go to the yesterday park there, said lag geh and them were there, since man not feelinf so well and o si hm chut, i asked her to stay dere, she refused and said need to wait for some time to den only go toilet, k lo, juz walk, den saw them, den take pic.when i peep backward, cakes!"happy birhday to u, happy birthd....to u"wao, i ngong liau...i dunno wat to react and juz sa sa de~~ blow and make wish, the stomache was a reason, i really kena tipu!man can again won a oscar price, and guy out for a walk was oso a reason!i very suprise in the early morning, where can they get the cakes...where all shops there were closed, a touchin and suprisin, thanks la my dear friends: ding, man, geh, lag, lili, cv, kalik and shin. den we hav a pic session all the while and them head back to bus station at 9, k puchong~my lie of the day is i attend a class, skip one class, one class cancel, tired den sleep~(end)

FIFA final 2010-part 1

11 july, we a group of ppl went genting to watch FIFA final 2010 spain vs netherlands. sit 7 pm bus, but missed, luckily dere is another 7.30, phew...den after reach genting is like around 8.30, den we look for food where we all are hungry about, den finally sit in a chinese restaurant near genting hotel. guy order, gal makan, hehe...when we finish, den we head to arena, scared no place...

1st apply genting world card where only with it only can let us go in, den we entertain ourself inside, take pic, kick balls, magic, draw flag...half way, we went out for a walk, watch dance...den around 2, we sit in properly and wait for the play, 2.30am start loo. very chi gek when the game 1st start, two of the team were speculatively try to hav a strike.but den most of the possesion fall to spain, my team, hehe...although i quite hope netherlands can win coz i found i and them very hav"yuan" coz most of it play, i accidentally watched.but i know spain will win more. finally, two teams were 0-0 for the match, den only during the last 8 min in the ET only let spain Iniesta goal in a ball, lucky him and yeah, hooray, all the ppl stood up and cheer, i like how happening it is.Howeever, i feel so ashame when i can fall asleep during the game, luckily no one see it, seriously a bit cannot tahan, coz no nap and i normally sleep before the play for 2.30, i dun wan de, juz dat the eyes keep closing, but luckliy i saw them goal...is 5 somthing, we went to find starbucks, who knows closed dy den finally stay in oldtown, order a hot choco and slices of bread, hungry e, felt a bit of gastric somemore, den sleep while sitting dere, till 6 something, den guys hav a walk...(to be continue)

20岁前的话

wao, after 2day i am not 19 anymore, wat a waste, no more tenth...year old in my life
if asked me what i had done for the 19 years?hmm...still ok, but if asked me what i regret for a lot loo, i haven find a bf(guess when leh?随缘la), hav been to guai at home(do nothing that make my members scold me gao gao), hav to little trip with friends coz i love so much on travelling(taiwan, japan, hk, trip till bancrupt oso nvm), haven scold my brother(he is too ego, should hav reduce him), haven proposed to a guy before(haven the time yet), haven been to clubbin...this one very serious, coz i will think that a girl of 20 never been to club, is it very ugly?hehe, i dun wait till i am seven old eight ten only go club, i think others will laugh me till die, since my look oso not dat young, why ya, pity me hav a mature old face, sad...how good if i have longer leg and slimmer body and younger look, impossible la...birthday to me, sounds nothing to be special and i hope i can get a very memorable one but till now, i haven experience one coz memorable to me means very suprise?, ya, but hard i think...19 going to end soon, comin 20 is juz a scary ages as i can officially mean to be no more young

大出血 blood ozing day

2day i had a gathering with janell, voon and fong, den before they reach, i hav my shopping on my own, happy, coz i got a shirt from mng and after a walk, i found that lancome is havin promotion. its perfume my favourites, den after hav a survey and great persuasion by the promoter, i paid.coz she offer me many gifts, hehe...press money from maybank, paid and get. 260 i spend for the "love". no regrets,my birthday present for myself^^, den a while later, voon and janell reached, movie! ip man-the legend it borns, 2 hours, nice~ den dere dey go makan, and i went to take photo where i can took it for free after purchasing more den dunno how much. free make up, why not?hehe, queue for quite long den dere is my turn, after take pic, meet nell and take pic and home....happy

wash car in emo

i think i sot jor, coz dunno why i feel so bu shuang juz now, no reason, or...mayb the fuck up stack of assignments and tests, wash car-my solution. 45min later, mayb kena splash by the water or all energy was used, i am normal again, like the vampire at night, juz dat the active time of steron vampire is so unpredictable. ^^

病魔不可怕， 可怕的是病态

i seriously 101% agree with the above statement, illness wasn't scary but what is horry is psycho of the ill person.
i experience that juz that, mine is not illness but is money, which can be solved comparably easier than my mum.
steron case: i can cry for hours when i lost my espirit umbrella, main reason not bcoz i hav not money to buy another new one, juz that i felt wasted and regret for my careless that made me lost it, my mum was once scold me why am i so stupid, cry for that. i seriously cry terribly till like my dog died like that, i oso dunno why, is out of control.i oso understand i shouldnt coz juz small little thing but my pyscho effect just happen...
mum case: she keep on want a healthy body, she thinking why cant juz she live like a normal person, why cant juz gift her no ill, she oso knows that it isnt that serious, not cancer, not dead causing but juz out of control will keep on think that why why why?why she had to suffer?why can i so weak
2day, she cried out again, as normal i comfort her, telling her dont, but juz that emotion is what u cant control and i think that cry is a way, i doesnt stop her, juz let her hug me.my sis cried by little, she is that,i din cry coz it will bcome more terrible if few person cried togather. after hav a short walk with mum outside my hse, dere she stop and start to balance back. comeback my room, i seriously feel very press and almost cried out, u never know when a mum told u that"i know a family without a mum is such a trajedy and pity and kelian"my heart sour up...

FIFA- one of the dissapointed team

yesterday, i purposely wake up at 2am to watch semi-final, uruguay vs netherland, as under my expectation, netherlands 3-2 wins.
this morning, again i am alarmed and watch the what i thought to be a final level standard de match, that is by gremany vs spain,who knows the 1st 45 min was boring, keep on passing here and dere, germany like all slept 游魂, high possesion by spain, till seventy something minutes, GOAL but is by spain, a bit dissaponinted, i din mean to support germany coz they are both strong, but juz that germany previous performance make me think that they hav high possibility to win, who knows...striker even does not play a good job,I thought germany can play like how it defeated argentina on saturday with a excellent result of 4-1, but their speed, skill, luck, was not shown. poki made this, i dunot know.finally 1-0 end the game, spain enter final FIFA 2010.

恍悟

i juz realized dat i am workin too much when i found dat i was out of the compound, thus i choose to remove all from facebook , mayb i was too minor to be in the book, hence i hav chosen to be conservative, i appreciate that i know it now before futher humilation. (words that only i know)

happy thing in utar

i found that the happy moment is where i met 3 of them in utar, geh, lag and man, where i can a moment of distress coz i can hav fun with them for some while after attending or goin to attend lecturer class, becoz the little moment make many fun as we see less, the topic we can talk oso more colourful and i can do many wei thing with them and they cannot angry coz not so frequent^^

unexpected broga trip

reach at mu mcd at 3.55 and meet eric, den sit his car begin my journey. 1st time?no la i think to be so brave coz i go hav fun with friend that i not really familiar. why? eric, he is the one who i met for less than 20 times and juz chattin in msn, woah right i give myself, i was a bit unbelivable that i really out with him, quite a experience that is me. i think he oso never expect me that i will say i wan go, that is the point that i dun wan let he has when i felt like i everytime reject his invitation as i scare he will not ask me nex time, and i think he will be a fun ppl to out with as he is that type of person who will enjoy with life, part of my type. so after join his friend, we depart officially at 5 something and reach broga leg at 6am. dark and little little of steep and slip when my shoes grabing land and friction were too out, i felt dangerous sometime, but seriously to say, broga was very safe to climb as no rain fall.sunday was a jam in broga, many cars many ppl where we always get stuck in the way up. i felt a bit energiless when i think i was too long never exposed to exercise, very long and very " chuan", tired still ok.take pictures, walk walk, breath breath, see see, thats all for wat we do on top of hill. down hill was fast around 25 min , we reach land, den go for dimsum in cheras den fetch me back to my car. seriously feel very fun to hav out with new ppl but den a bit not too free that is what i can talk whatever is not dere, as not "sok" with them but luckily his friends were quite nice too^^, after that, head to grandma hse, den my brother drive away myvi and i follow my dad's car to bmw find his new car and den only back home, seriously i am extremly tired but dun dare to voice up that i only slept for half an hour last night where they thought i hav at least 3 hours sleep. nap for only few hours den got up and go sunway hav dinner, sushi, 1st time to my dad with the persuasion of my uncle, rm 260 for our dinner. very tired now, luckily 2moro class late, phew, nightz.

1st time i do out of rule

after watching the semi final match at picadilly of germany vs argentina and i look good at germany, finally it won without hesitation with a result of 4-0, great job of their player, esp goal keeper. geng! den i went home, not a little while, eric ask me want to go broga later, den i was shocked. i wish to go since long time ago juz dun hav the chance, den now is a good chance, but den i feel like reject him coz i promise my family to hav breakfast dimsum togather. when he said"i know what ur answer dy", means that he know that i am goin to reject him, in the context, i feel like i cannot let him hav this kind of feeling, i was undecisive till i off computer, i was still thinkin whether go or not, since it should be a fun and a chance for me go broga.den till 2 am, i was considering whether to sms him i want to go, finally i juz press send and i dun think of the consequences anymore, den i told him to meet him at 3.45 if i manage to get up. of course wake up will not be a problem , juz that i need to use that reason to back up me if i change my mind. den i was unable to get in sleep till 2.30. 3am wake up, to take bath and write a message to my mum about my unexpected and shocked trip. i know i am a bit bad but i will forgive myself as i am goin to be 20, if i still not dare to brave up myself to do some abnormal, i will regret, coz reason if i asked my mum, she sure wont let me go, esp out at 3 am and juz comeback from pj and sleep less than an hour and go to setapak. i did it, i sure do more, if not i will hav a dull teenage-adult life like he, no way! dam sien~my 1st move was succesful ^^

stop stop stop

i hav very strong pressure when stayin at home, yet cannot leave home, why?scare to leave my mum at home, and she felt very sick den i feel so bad as a daughter, pressure because of assigment, when there are 2 asm to do and many tests comin and fsa, math stat, toi and outline for public speakin made me felt dieing fast, feel pressure when ppl ask me to do things that i have bot know and juz suddenly but i like discuss before those matter, feel pressure to out from the hse at night when i scare all the masters question me why i hav to out at night, scare to tell i wanna out clubbin, there is when my fren ask me and i hav to use reason to reject him, pressure because scare all the ppl ask me to how should i take care my mum, how should i comfort her, how should i tell my dad to concern my mum more, how should i hav to companion my mum more, feel pressure when i hav no one to talk to but blog.

as i am a person who cannot withstand too much of pressure, dun wish to think too much of worries, i think i am goin to burst before anyone, i think the one who goin to hav depression, who need to eat medicine is me before anyone.