nex week?

i think nex week, i can sustain my holiday like 2day. guess, what i will do?
most probably go ipoh stay for some day, haven really made up my mind as i am doin it alone

i am cruel

i cruelly beat my dog till my hand o che(black green). she is makin too much of noise in the late night, i wonder my neighbour will come and complaint thats why i beat her with my bare hand. now still pain, can see my vein is abnormal now. this dog not really my favourites, 1st she is not under my hand, someone bought it and she is too too naughty. not really like. guess, a dog lover like me oso not really like she, can imagine how naughty she is. my hand stil numb and pain. juz now i really get frustrated till wanna kecok her neck till she lifeless but of course, i m not.

无爱

seriously to say now from my heart, i dont hav someone to like. if admire is like den i like lots of ppl. my means of admire in terms looking, body, car, clothing. i asked myself what is the feeling of like, coz i oredy forget the feeling of love. my ex, now oso forget how he looks and if i saw him, i will treat like a passer-by.
very sok wif a guy does not means i like him, juz that it is my style of behaving. obviously if i willing to chat with a guy so much means that i really treat him as one of the good, if not, my style of behaving will not let me to speak with a person with more than 10 proper lines of sentences. selfish de me tell me that, if i sok with a friend, my major aim is to hope he can bring me for fun and at least take me in on laughter. sorry, thats me ^^

life of no motivation

it was my life that is so bore here, without any plan, without any paper, without any motive...
thinkin to hav fun, but the 1st step is very hard. guess what, hope someone can support my 1st step.
2day i guess i dun stay in stpk coz someone reply made me think that i am odd to be alone if i go or is he thinkin he scared me alone or he scared he has to take care of me, thats why. whatever it is, since i hav the feeling of one of it, it tells me i dont go better, fei shi xia sui...^^

stay or not?

should i stay here for one more day to go clubbing, omg, i am 心动. think think think...ing

another day after final

yesterday,wake up early in the morning automatically, i guess before 8 am, i cant sleep, den dere i decide to go for joggin in the garden of melati. den after that sms ding, ask her go shoppin, 12 pm utar bus to wangsa.

shop many things 2day, electronic, clothing, shoess... spend me almost >150. den dere we hav movie in gsc times square where we saw donnie yen now movie is showing somemore is the 1st day, hehe. the legend of the fist: chen zhen. He was a so man de actor, with his muscular body, and cool face, gaining to like him more. den around 9 something went out from sg wang, after times sq and lowyat^^
so long din hav this long walk, long shop and my leg was starting to pain, i should hav this kind of activities more so that i am immune to it, shuang!haha...shop till hand 抽经, very serious dy, haha...lookin at my purse felt pity to her, haih...but worth la, if can, i wan do buy more till hands cant finish holding the bags....if there is infinite inflow of money, i guess 2day i will hav one more pairs of heels, but logically told me i shoudnt buy coz it very hard to match, but it really a nice heels.

2day i miss one shirt and one scarf, time not allowed dy.

diet start again

after final, i have to back to normal life, cut off those fats dat i earn during final( snacks, rice, supper, teatime....)
vitagen is my starter, hehe... with lactobacilus acisofilus, enzyme i guess it is

22 september 2010

2day was my final final day. a happy yet sad day, coz i havin 2 paper 2day, macro and toi. both i can manage to pass for not high result. i was so tired after the toi paper and hardly manage to revise after that as my brain cant really active well, cell were still in last paper de mood. finally it was 4.30 and i end year 2 semester 1 de final, guess i will fail how many this time, i am no much interest on it again, as i wan to get rid of those shit stressful notes, and now i had keep all away from my eyesight, hehe...

and wach resident evil: afterlife as a release for me as a norm for me after final, it was a great 3d movie i guess if compare to others cartoon 3d and humilating to say it was my 1st 3d movie in my life, dun tease as my kampung-ness, hehe...

my exam slip becomes fei zhi dy->

the day has come

2day, i think the most suffering day i will hav among this few months, coz i will hav to stuggling with toi and macro paper 2moro, same day. my mooncake festival day juz gone with this two devils.hope i will not burst and 崩溃too much 2day, now it still morning, the fight of devils haven start, bless me.fight off the two!

burger rou

suddenly juz wan to eat burger ham.after consider for 15 min, i decided to go mamak hav one simple,i juz dun care whether i can how many kg in final. on diet during final is a abusive action to the stomach, so muz not! burger chicken juz cost me rm2 but it cause me to go up and down coz the mamak dun hav change for my 50 bugs. finally, i korek here and dere find syling of 2 to pay. no standard service, somemore show me the money he has, eww, so wei la him!
I know me too coz pay 50 for 2, hehe^^

camho is one my pass time

dat day went genting, i was siok sendiri in the highlands hotel room camho-ing, from inside the bathroom to outside the bathroom, hehe...

simple things make great satisfaction

dat day went genting, i did the most satisfying thing is i get my self a giantic salad that worth rm8. it was a great fun, i wan to order again for that satisfaction^^

i m so pro in filling salad bowl!

a lunch with mcd

saturday, i m still struggling with final, why it seems endless, lunch with eloise at mcd after we are so bored to staying in the same room studyin the sei yan tou notes. now, risk turns. a bit noisy, cant really can focus, but it jus nice when i can get out of wall, purpose not to study but refresh mind. fillet-o fish set value lunch is my order, mayo a lotsssss....

stay dere 2 hours den head home.to sleeppp!

mission of dumping shit

yesterday kena summons from traddic polis and 2day after math stat paper(fail dy de paper) straight go petaling street, head quarter of traffic station to pay the shit. lost on the road, not really but mayb i had drive a bit further den it should but nvm as long as i am save dere and save home. after checking only know now dun hav rebate, discount and rayuan for the shit. again, den only i know the shit cost 30, if i hav know dat earlier juz simply pay it in gk where the police in wangsa told me. police=police, traffic=traffic, mpsj=mpsj, all tak sama. den after head back to gk to da bao my lunch, zhap fan and i meet joshua dere. simply recommended by him to try the drumstick, hmm still ok ok nia...mayb coz i not so like to eat drum. ^^
2day i went for so many raod, and i hav tried hardly to remember all them but guess left eye in, right eye out. special thanks to eric coz he teach me some way to petaling street.
mission of shit completed.

我是禁不起海浪的强墙

因为一破就流水
i am so weak, so much contra with my personalities, as i thought. little stuff can discrupt me so much. 2moro is math stat test, as i guess help from weihan, i think i can do some question, mayb manage to pass, i oso dunno. but now in my mind is the shit summonce, fuck police is what i wan to say now. guess what, i get this outside my condo!eww~so wei! condo oso can get summonce and my mind is all about the summonce, coz i hate my life with dirts. i cries for few drops(2) when i called my mum and told, really not a big matter coz everyone will get but dunno why, i juz feel so sad with the dirts. mayb final+dirts were a storm to me where rain can drops. and thunder terrify me.

my new stay

this is my new stay in pv3 block a, 13a floor, unit due to save purpose, cannot reveal, hehe

i am you ying(有形）2day

i am totally give up to the paper, mathematical statistic final till i hav the brave to say i wan follow when my mum ask me wan go genting juz now, 6 hours ago.whats more, i went for movie this afternoon after my final with eloise, popeye is my lunch, step up 3 was my show. see, how dare i can live in this. why? juz bcoz i dun hav anything to gain if i open the math stat notes, haih...see how i die for it, i wonder what i get?fail, most probably.

starbuck- hot choco( gainin cold) in genting

days before 914

if ...
i am goin to stress till die
i am stupid, my brain malfunction
what i hav studied, i dunno
how good if i am not human NOW till the days end, ish!
if cry can solve everytin, i hope i cry till now where is flooding

feel so helpless

i was now alone in this hse, this room, no movie, no drama, only endless notes, progress slow till turtle oso can win my speed, i feel like donate out my brain and ask for donation from others, at least i think it is useless den any others one. feel like screamin now and find one to talk too, who? i oso cant think of who when i found myself very annoyin now, keep on calling ppl before 2day..hope my friend wont think i very fan, pity me i am juz one.

my inside

2day is the day i moved out again to pv3, new stay.
i am bu shaung in the early morning, there is something i show a bad face to my family, who am i?they were asking, u movin out urself right?after i said i am goin to drive my car along, tilam, many many more stuff, they din think of it was too burden for me move the thing, den i was juz very bushuang in replyin their question, very cincai and talk in a manner without one second patience. at 1st i thought to back condo mayb not 2day, mayb later, but after this, straight away i wan leave this hse as soon as possible. my heart actually was crying, they dont un. den i juz tell i wanna buy chair den there i go out. buy chair~~go tesco 1st, den ioi to get my album and compare the chait wit jusco, sweat, jusco only open at 1pm due to hari raya. den i head back go giant see, den think a bit expensive, den go home, thinkin move things up and den go tesco buy chair.on the way home still thinkin who can i ask for to make my shift, lili, wc,cv, finally i choose wc, but only after i call him after reach home.
den unexpectedly my dad said wanna help me shift, obviously i mouth hard and said dun need and told i will ask friend for help, den he insist wan help, happily my mood change positive bit. but when i know my mum oso goin they i felt bu shuang coz when i saw her, i felt very streesed, stress to see when everytime need to show she very sick and dizzy, den what for u wan go help, later i get blamed pula.
den reach pv3, she said wanna help me take stuff, den i juz said, no need la, later u dizzy again, i bu ke qi de shuo. coz i felt stress w her for dunno why. sorry to say that.(mayb coz i always heard many ppl blame?say?instruct?told?teach?) but i am juz that bad, i know. den after they put the things.they leave.my world, i arrange my cloth, stuff...no one at home, i thought all back, who knows the beside that 3-sis + one guy+one mum come back, den dere i go say hi, at least a manner to tell them i am here. den dere i go back my room, they actually quite noisy like what i did in 15 floor.ok, is ok, at least not too over. my 1st night is 10 september 2010.

i cried

after i called my friend for telling him how stress am i, i cries and now it still crying....i cant finish, i feel like changing course. i seriously very tensed with the situation now, not i dont want study, is i cant anymore~

should and when

when to move?when to leave?
should i move myself?
should i come back?
should i bring car?
should i not?
argh!i sot dy

toi or macro; macro or toi

now, i realised that i m in a pity slow mode when all the things that i should finish haven, my studies, my move...
omg, when i think of last day of final hav to take 2 paper, i feel so exhausted and think oso can feel the diziness and i guess i will cry on the day before. TOI MACRO 2 heavy subjects on the day, i really hate it now, i hav to study toi or macro on the day before, hell!!!!!if someone can push me into it now.
till now, i am still struggling which should i skip and not to touch on coz i really hav no time, no time...
dieing...

无人的孤岛

i found myself was in an island, with no one else, shit my life! hav i changed or they are doin too over. my only conversation with family is o, a, en, okok i will call, whats more? no...i feel like crying in my heart coz no one understand me, other will ppl will think why i like this, blame me for my fault, den why am i still tell others, thats why i dont, instead of blaming my fault which i dont think come from me, fuck my life now, i hate everthing, actually i hope a car bang me and i die, so good, dun force me til the last end. i seriously like a dead. stayin at home will other ppl think it is a wonderful but why i dont think so, i only can feel stress at home!lookin at their face, thinking of what they thinkin oredy is tired enuf. what can fulfil me now? coz i oredy dun hav energy to argue and talk more at home. i cannot tahan of or be blamed for what i think is not wrong. calling for the solit, maxis, bank, tenaga, the steamboat dinner. what i did wrong?!if there is fairness in life, i will scold u; if there i can earn money myself instead of using urs for the past 20 years, i will scold u. for my right. what i opt for, only fairness manner and consideration, as a family what u did, in this typical home, i am voiceless. yes, of course, if i am weaker, i will definitely survive well because dominator will feel happy with the absence of me, but i am not, dun let me burst! 一拍两散. looking at their face oredy made me fed up enuf(coz their face is showing i m wrong do they know what actually they did is actually piss me off)

as a friend, dun ask me , coz only u will let me live out of my home when i saw u and get a piece of smile, yet, i will only wants to cry at home.

why other ppl think livin at home is great and i dont.

saturday special dinner

shark fin, not bad, qing qing dan dan

sun hok fish, nice fish, the flesh very q

the daiji hakau vege, expensive!no special, daiji little, hakao oso little

ah yat fried rice, no special but ingredient special and we like the chef cook more den the manager cook, although very cool coz she cook for us in front of many, expensive!

service + goverment tax= 90--, i had expected.

1st time in my life our family eat till that hou, where? at yat abalone restaurant.

taste?ok ok la, not oilly, but wok hei, ma ma dei only

service?very good, keep on hav ppl help u to refill water, i guess my cup hav been filled up for dunno homany times?

environment?is comfort, not nosiy and not many ppl

location?pj, easy to find, but car parkin fees is expensive.
price?very expensive bit oso coz of the food la. fish the most worth.