do we come out to study or to fun?

do we come out to study or to fun?i really dunno, i quite enjoy today at least bcoz 2moro is ASM. a subject that i aim higher den pass. C? B?hehe...well, at least study in other place other den room is much more better no matter how, juz like now, i m not studyin but bloggin and browsing here and dere, haih...堕落
after yesterday nap, continue to another battle with demon " ASM", ding suggest go UTAR study, ok a, since i always heard ppl said utar is good to study at night, coz there are super calm and in study mode, there by after dinner, we went to UTAR mph. pickin ah bo, and karen to dinner at a place recommend by sheying at wangsa, yong taufu where i never been to, juz explore xia since, this place is not far from metroview.

this is our new discovery, juz opposite the metrovie, the road to the hospital tentera

a quote

人生有一个地方，有一个人，在这个人面前，可以不必有出息，可以不必有形象，可以全身都是弱点

这就是知己
quoted by xiao xiin

stress till like this...

this morning, no is at dawn, 4am, wake up to do my final touch up on IAM, terrible, i m awake but my mind was so blur, till 5.30, i cannot think d. sad...so i juz tell myself muz get into sleep. so to prevent later i cant even recall the freakin lots formula, i do get back to sleep. sleep till 6.15, still feel very blur, give myself another 15min, seriously now means no time at ALL for tutorial, i juz leave it, wat ever. 

15min before exam, argh, i cant think, shit. later i feel to gg inside. den got my paper, ==, haven start, i oredy want to vomit, seriously, i never stress till like this at the moment of exam， thanks to IAM give me this 1st experience. =(
exam end...certified that i am going to repeat the paper. i juz wan to give up and run away juz now, juz dat i give myself a try to let the lecturer know he has a poor student. ;p come back melati, i am super good mood coz i hav finish one paper, instead of emo abt i hav poor results which is not my style. juz dat finish one paper, i oredy feel my body and mind is exhausted like i finish my final d.
god bless me, 2moro another paper ^^
chao to nap...with my lovely♥blanket i brought back from home, hehe...

should i go home?

my food i brought to stpk to cheer me, but now seems fail

this morning, feeling is super good, with lovely breakfast prepared by my mum and good process of study, well, my tell me later u go back stpk, get ur notes and come back again la, den i said: dun wan la, nex tuesday oredy my exam d.
den, after i went to bank, den i get myself some food to distress when i come back stpk. i bought cheese cake, cakes from RT, den pass by thong kei, den i think of them( my lovely ding, geh, man, lag; ding likes dan tart, she always bought from pv7 which i think not really nice, thong kei really famous of it, den i juz get down and buy 6, which another one is for roommate which i felt so bad, if i left her out), who knows, when i sms them whether they at stpk, they told me they were all back home, coz the nex paper not so soon. seriously, i feel a moment of down, i hav to settle those dan tart and i hav no companions d =(

i m silent when i m stressed

i would like say that i m really stressed up this morning-afternoon. i saw my frens, i feel stressed when i thought abt the assignments which i started to do since last night. know nothing abt calculus so i juz depend, know little abt asm assignment, coz hang by the question when is abt multiple regression plotting. know 0 abt the softwares of r.2.8.1 and matlab. shit programming, coding or watever abt computer,i m juz suck at it. well not only dat but is all. i tense, i stress not bcoz i worry abt whether can i pass it up (coz i know finally there will something to submit) but more to i cant sponsor effort to the group assignments and end up need ppl help me, i feel i so weak and terrible, and i m scare ppl will hate me coz i dunno how to do. and nex time they dun wan group w me, plz dun, i scare alone although most of the time i am working independently. juz walk out from dk, on the way to get my car to hav lunch with others, i walk a bit front, coz i feel like i m cryin, luckily, it is juz swirling in my eyes and no one comes to me, if not, dere will be a raining day for me in a sunny day. i am silent when i m stressed. i talk little when i m tense. i dun like to smile when i m exhausted. and finally, all the tests and assignments hav done.

here, i would like to use this opportunity firstly to ding and karen for being so much for me in my assignments coz i m juz useless. ding and karen help me so so much which u never expect how kind are they. they are juz my lovely, importantly friends. indeed and in need. and also would like to thanks all the ppl who are "teaching" us with examples. they are juz so useful, feel so paiseh, to only find them when i need them. sorry, i will do and pay watever u want as long as u ask coz u all are really important.
ppls i want to credit and of course ur great help in my assigns: ding, karen, vt, zw, wc, my, sy, j, and unknown senior

因为你们的慷慨解烦 才显得我自己渺小和需要 即使是微不足道的鼓励 已经是我最大的支持

我过着乞丐的生活 ?

this doesnt mean i hav to beg money for life, it means that i hav no motive to study for my test, i only know there are tests and i hav to study but not for the behind purpose of wat tests mean by.

what is exhausted to me?

baby do exhausted too??he is not sleeping, he is exhausted abt playin or mayb drinkin milk, lol

 exhausted to me is get too over tired of something, by means of physically still very energetic, mind can still very clear, but heart is tired. if u ask me, do i feel sleepy now, my answer is no. but exhausted ppl get sleepy easily after recharge by means of short nap, coz this is wat i had. heart tired obviously u wont the concentration and willingness to continue something, so the best way is find factor of excitement on wat u feel exhausted on, but this is hard, thats why i m stil exhausting here....

AS again

why why why i choose this course? arghhhh, I seriously hav no idea wat am i reading, this is juz FE1, how about FE2. u think i hav to repeat this subjects how many times before i proceed to repeat FE2 how many times. juz as terrible as IAM, same circulation, coz relation to life-cont 1 and life-cont 2. can someone juz tell me, am i doin the right thing continue in studyin actuarial science, this freakin dead-causing course!i give u a damn, AS!

give up, life will be easier & longer; no, life will be shorter, future yet unknown.

blackout in melati

all condos black out, the football match started

 why i said football match, check my words check my videos below ^^, classic*

lag's 21st birthday : part 1

before 12am of 12 april, we were ready to suprise her at room when we al pretend to sleep, den when 12 clock hits, me and geh juz comes from outside suddenly, closed light, and birthday song is sing, then two zombie(ding, man) wake her up as well as to surprise her. guess what is our cake ? u will know later....
den we juz hav some shootings and heh~ on their bed.
actually we were all tired and seriously want to sleep before 12am, but for lag, nvm la, but i oredy curi curi nap for haf an hour bcoz i juz went for an outing. seems so kesian when my tears really dropped due to the sleepiness, but when after the surprise is goin on, forgot abt tired d ^^

我有病要戒

原来EMO 的时候真的不知道自己写了什么做了什么 我看回去那些MSN简讯 发现到我是不是发了那条神经线错乱 我竟然为了一些不知道什么的什么 气 我真的很奇怪 我要改掉 以后还是谢绝与人类交谈当自己在非常非常疲累的时候 有够糟 而且还是越变越糟

random post

random 1: the best solution from stop myself from eating lap sap, is brush teeth, i hope someone will always remind me to brush teeth when i m putting lapsap in my mouth^^

unrecycle me, i hav use so so so many papers=( (sorry to trees)

random 2: friday IAM test 2, omg, if the final test for this subject, well, full dissapointment since test 1, poor dao no eye see de result, so after work hard for few days few nights, seriously i never been so hardworking since ages, spend 6 hours in schol, study in library like no one else, this is like things that i continuously did these few days. why?hahaha...coz, i m planning not to be student 2moro.
2day is my last night, 2moro is my last day.

random 3: something i know little but not all is bad

random 4: i wan do shoppin for my ball night, when when when?friday?after test? weekend go blow wind again, hehe, no time d...=( long dress, short dress, but most mafan is heels, i haven meet my lovely heels

end~

 my breakfast 2day ^^, finally after long time, i manage to get myself try one out of the 2 of mcd big breakfast offer for FREE, but condition is RM5 minimum purchase ^^, so

sorry to her

i felt so sorry to eloise when i cannot tahan anymore and make up my mind from moving away from this room, i have been hesitate for quite sometime coz she is really a good roommate and coz of i juz wan to live here for one more semester. but actually i can move back to puchong anytime , juz dat i dun wan since i m takin lesser and lesser subjects soon.

i asked few friends about what to do?whether to move out or not...

go or not, leh?

mayb someppl will think i m crazzy of doin thins alone coz i m planning to go genting for a short day relaxation only if my cousin reply me she is dere, or not, i will still thinking whether go or not, latest by 2moro before i go tutorial class~
though i hope someone can accompany me but den the someone seems like no one, hahahaha....i juz wan to drink a cup of drink up there chill my mind from the very stress, of course i m not drivin, public transport uncle is my driver 2moro ^^

mood down to max

i was previously at a good mood,

sushi makin day

2day originally got one tutorial, due to importance of make my sushi, i skipped.(hehe...coz someppl told me mostly they will ponteng if they only hav one hour tutorial, whats more is a noob lecturer who i cant understand at all after he speaks so much) i bought these ingredients last week and last last week, i can conclude, japanese food is not cheap, haha...at 1st i thought make sushi is not dat

ur plant is growing well

u know who i mean to, the plant i bought u and u give back to me is now growing well, hahaha...so proud, i m a good farmer ^^

u never know what i put to make it fertilize?guess...

decision made, money spent

i had never to decide to go for a vacation in a day, hmm...not really but is like i planned many times juz dat no ppl wan chap me and i din take enough courage to step out 1st. where i go? i juz click into airasia this afternoon, after looking at my calendar, count count count, not clash with exam, not clash with anything, confident +courage of sudden, dere i pay money loo by juz maybank2u. this service kill me alot, coz now i can juz simply spend money on internet, arghhh...watever, happy satisfaction wins all. 

i juz dun hv planning about my trip, where to go, where to sleep,no idea. i think i will juz sleep in the airport, hahaha...for that 5days 4nights, suddenly think of i m so 胆大包天, i din tell my parents, din think of i hav to vacate alone, i m juz again wan to prove myself i m super like trip, super like travel. actually not dat serious oso la, i think coz the airfare is cheap dao, i throw away oso nevermind if really that time got no more courage to backpack alone.well, if u wan join me?is not too late yet ^^
**actually i desperately hope someone can go with me~, feel scary if i think the process where i hav to be one all the time

my test hall at s block

all ppl is working hard on their last try, but i oredy give up, i oso sien w my attitude

for AS student, they will never miss calculator, either this normal 570,  fm calculator, advance scientific, my necessary during test, a water for me to do something when i m clueless, and writting "utensils", haha...

omg, i am exposing  my answer, please those who know the answer plz dun tease at mine, it is a piece of " huh?is that the answer?!" lol, seriously i dunno what am i writting but i can juz crap so many numbers out

when i finished my paper, all ppl is still craving their head to make their best, but wat impress me is the situation above

 

2day march 14 is my advanced calculus test 1 day, i am juz 1st time meet the content on friday, coz i "think" i din pay "little" attention to mr ivan talk, coz he is juz so unattractive person, u can see from above, hehehe...8 weeks i was like juz go, sign, sit, ipod and last but not least, liew the ppl around me. of course i do copy notes juz dat, hmm...hehehe, copy few lines den juz told fren around me, later borrow me ya, coz i really dunno need to copy from where and yet, i dun wan miss, who knows, his "extra" on board is like useless, i "think", text book provide all the info and even better den notes(reason: his notes are from text book==)

and juz this morning, i only realized i m superb lazy, haih...sad...coz yesterday i promise myself to study tutorial, who knows i look at it, the expression give to myself is " wa! so many, hmm, nex time la, final dat time only do and read la"omg, this really sounds like wat a girl wil do, arghh...i m man=( and i dun like give myself last try in test coz i feel like i can do nothing better, so after i wrote my last sentence, i will rarely look at my answer again

seriously i hope everyone else is like me so dat i m not the weird one, i juz think that, i should take art in the very beginning, well, no time for me to regret~phooh(breath out)

chao~ to nap back my yesterday my midnight 2 am oil ^^