caR accident wasnt easy

yesterday, 3 of us, mum, sis and i juz involved in an accident. the cause and effect of the accident i cannot really tell here coz we had some fault to be blamed, as well as the 20 year old driver who drives extremely fast at the long straight road, how dare he cant see our car clearly? =( it was a nightmare to me, and i hope it never happens. and i was seriously feel i m heading to hell in 1 second, i was knocked till blur yet dunno wat happened coz i thought it was juz a died and chok from a manual car. seriously, i really hate that feeling. i sat in the back seat and the impact is so strong that make me feel dizzy at the moment yet i muz very fast clearing my mind coz we hav to cover the fault. till now, i felt scare to see again the picture, reflect back the moment and the feeling of die-ing. luckily we were all save without any external injured as well as the boy too.
we were all nervous, faster call father, brother, and mum.s fren who is working in automobile workshop. after discuss with the opponent, they know their fault too when polices come to 8. they told us to report in police stATION seri kembangan. the opponent juz luckily was come from a educated indian family as least they din try to argue too much as the one involved still is under 21. lots of ppl come to ask for business biy luckily we had our dealer. after photoshotting recording all the need, after the car trucker come and get out car to the station when the car cant be moved at all, waiting for report, around 1.30, is done. Finally.

party or not? hmm...

a random pic of my lovely BOnnie
( never know i hav a family with 妮 too)
joke that you will know, hahaha

july is comin, mum juz asked me, do u wan to hav a party for ur big day, then i was very hectic w it, coz i feel a bit mafan of makin party. catering? and ask friends to come is like quite troublesome, coz i hav to worry will they come? do they know how to come? how they come? argh, this is so so makin me big head. then i was thinking mayb juz hav a small party among my 20-30 closer friends. problems like not goin to change? wat if exam week? what if they were all busy with their intern =( they are too too too many ideas go into my mind, yet one word appear after the ideas, that is " failure", i scare i m not "friendly" enough to call my friends come. well, this is a humilation, dont u think so?
i personally think catering is too much, and a bit kua zhang as i dont like to get myself tired with preparing stuff, yet i like to fun with my friends. i m in dilemma.
save all this thing and pass my big day quietly or not leh?
how am i suppose to call up my friends come to fun with me, instead of using "formal party"blek, i dun like so formal ^^
i wish i m rich enough to get all my friends to a vacation and hav fun together, that is juz a dream

she is in dilemma too, hahaha

father and i

today, i juz claimed my summonce from my father, hav to ask nicely and pretending, it is so hard yet i hav to express my anger of getting the summon, well, my dad juz bushuangly told me, why u dont park inside, den i juz explained in my ways and he is like saying, how not worth it will be if everytime hav to pay for the summon which cost the same as park inside, den i juz tell him, few months only kena once, den bla bla bla... and i juz told him nex time no yellow line, i wont park outside d, lol, i will juz claim parking fees.at least, my life will be easier. well, get the money and juz shut my mouth up, and i dun even dare to claim for the another one, but thanks to all my closests for helping me up the eat that 牛肉干.

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7月13日出生的人一生都在追逐身边不断出现的机会。他

们有些人虽然可以认出机会，却老是跨出错误的第一步，结果满怀信心地出发却败阵而归。不过，大部分的人还是能够紧抓住机会、一举中的，享受滚滚而来的钞票或是精神上的飨宴。
*i always feel full of confidence to do enter the test hall, but when come out, i feel i m at the peak of failure

这天出生的人如果遭遇失败，多半会认为自己很倒楣，这不但影响到他们的自信心，还注定了以后的悲惨命运。而成功的人则始终认为幸运之神迟早会来临，不管现在的处境多么不顺利或是进度缓慢，他们始终满怀自信和自尊，即使状况非常不如人意。
*recently, i feel my  额头 forehead blacken, is it means i havin bad luck from the incidents of poor resultS, get summonceS, i wan 冲喜, now i pantang black, chair oso dun wan sit black color de, lol, (what i did yesterday) i m superstition in some sense ;p

i m silent when i m stressed

i would like say that i m really stressed up this morning-afternoon. i saw my frens, i feel stressed when i thought abt the assignments which i started to do since last night. know nothing abt calculus so i juz depend, know little abt asm assignment, coz hang by the question when is abt multiple regression plotting. know 0 abt the softwares of r.2.8.1 and matlab. shit programming, coding or watever abt computer,i m juz suck at it. well not only dat but is all. i tense, i stress not bcoz i worry abt whether can i pass it up (coz i know finally there will something to submit) but more to i cant sponsor effort to the group assignments and end up need ppl help me, i feel i so weak and terrible, and i m scare ppl will hate me coz i dunno how to do. and nex time they dun wan group w me, plz dun, i scare alone although most of the time i am working independently. juz walk out from dk, on the way to get my car to hav lunch with others, i walk a bit front, coz i feel like i m cryin, luckily, it is juz swirling in my eyes and no one comes to me, if not, dere will be a raining day for me in a sunny day. i am silent when i m stressed. i talk little when i m tense. i dun like to smile when i m exhausted. and finally, all the tests and assignments hav done.

here, i would like to use this opportunity firstly to ding and karen for being so much for me in my assignments coz i m juz useless. ding and karen help me so so much which u never expect how kind are they. they are juz my lovely, importantly friends. indeed and in need. and also would like to thanks all the ppl who are "teaching" us with examples. they are juz so useful, feel so paiseh, to only find them when i need them. sorry, i will do and pay watever u want as long as u ask coz u all are really important.
ppls i want to credit and of course ur great help in my assigns: ding, karen, vt, zw, wc, my, sy, j, and unknown senior

因为你们的慷慨解烦 才显得我自己渺小和需要 即使是微不足道的鼓励 已经是我最大的支持

what is exhausted to me?

baby do exhausted too??he is not sleeping, he is exhausted abt playin or mayb drinkin milk, lol

 exhausted to me is get too over tired of something, by means of physically still very energetic, mind can still very clear, but heart is tired. if u ask me, do i feel sleepy now, my answer is no. but exhausted ppl get sleepy easily after recharge by means of short nap, coz this is wat i had. heart tired obviously u wont the concentration and willingness to continue something, so the best way is find factor of excitement on wat u feel exhausted on, but this is hard, thats why i m stil exhausting here....

sorry, i scold too much

do u ever study in levain? i do ; do u ever stay till this late?8.30pm. i do

for the sake of study, we hav did what others dont, coz we stay here like more den 4 hours

is like 2 clock, i haven got the reply, dere i sms ding, wanna accom me pick my heels from fahrenheit88 and then go levain to study. suprisingly she is so willing, happily, there we leave pv3 to kl, study.

levain is like a 5 min distance from fahrenheit, a patisserie. bakery shop with good environment and loads of ppl loads of cars, no parkin in levain. when we reach there, is like got DBKL summon-ing, so, we are like waiting he go, den after we juz parked illegally. well, we scare he comes back again, dereby ding suggest me to put on the summon on my wiper dat i got few days ago. coz common sense telling us, he wont come back to check summons. well, happily, we go in levain, find a seat outside where it is quieter and we arent wasting their table for others coz we plan to study. coz we read some and manage to talk some, and fb a while i brought my lappie along. but i juz on it for like 20 min. ^^

AS again

why why why i choose this course? arghhhh, I seriously hav no idea wat am i reading, this is juz FE1, how about FE2. u think i hav to repeat this subjects how many times before i proceed to repeat FE2 how many times. juz as terrible as IAM, same circulation, coz relation to life-cont 1 and life-cont 2. can someone juz tell me, am i doin the right thing continue in studyin actuarial science, this freakin dead-causing course!i give u a damn, AS!

give up, life will be easier & longer; no, life will be shorter, future yet unknown.

我有病要戒

原来EMO 的时候真的不知道自己写了什么做了什么 我看回去那些MSN简讯 发现到我是不是发了那条神经线错乱 我竟然为了一些不知道什么的什么 气 我真的很奇怪 我要改掉 以后还是谢绝与人类交谈当自己在非常非常疲累的时候 有够糟 而且还是越变越糟

sorry you

there is something i really care for, instead of my feeling, i rather care what ppl feel esp to the ppl i care. i m sorry to wat i did, but if possible, i hope yesterday din happen, at least there isnt the situation like this, i realy dunno how to face. guilty...not cause by you, is something i should beware nex time when chatting. to everyone i guess. haih...feel so wrong
dun feel bad with it if u read it, if u think u feel more guilty if i tell, den i will dont express it anymore, i juz dun like ppl feel bad on what i did. sorry. i make sure no nex time.

sorry to her

i felt so sorry to eloise when i cannot tahan anymore and make up my mind from moving away from this room, i have been hesitate for quite sometime coz she is really a good roommate and coz of i juz wan to live here for one more semester. but actually i can move back to puchong anytime , juz dat i dun wan since i m takin lesser and lesser subjects soon.

i asked few friends about what to do?whether to move out or not...

mood down to max

i was previously at a good mood,

让爱转动整个地球

after i listen to this, i tears for a little, coz natural disaster is killing human, to whoever, whatever country, they are the same, human life is precious for us to care. they did not deserve to die 1st. argh, i feel they are pity, if change a point of view, i m the victim or i m the dead, what should i do?what should i feel?
i hope i can treasure all the ppl around me as long as they are here with me, to all my families my friends. i bless all the victims all the dead all the volunteers all the blessers.
让爱转动整个地球－群星
though this is a song for 921 but i think it encourages whoever involve in unluckyness

a msn stranger

i m so scared now, a stranger juz come to my msn chat box and i thought he is my another fren coz he called andrew oso, arghhh, shit, should i delete his contact? omg omg omg....i juz felt i hav no privacy and unsecured now, arghhh

monday march

2day go maybank, fail in opening account coz poor system-offline.2moro hav to go again, sien, they really working slow and i found mostly indian are working in puteri branch.

den head to public, to do some settlement. is fast, u can see the differenc between chinese ppl and other race working attitude.

after that, go to facial coz really a long time since last time and i can feel my face is torn, hehehe...

cally talk some sensitive issue thaT sensitized me, argh...1stly, she asked me about " hav u got ur bf?..." she scared me by telling me i should get one during uni life, if not, when u work that time, that will be supremely hard, coz u hav to compete with lots of girls, so sad...den she asked whether my mum asked me about this thing, den i said no den she keep continue telling my mum's friend who is also her customer, that she asked her daughter to fast fast hav one at this age, den i m thinkin, why my mum din tell me this de, den she said my mum not open enuf at this, den i will think ya lo, my fren's mum oso telling this to her, haih...diff family. i think my dad and mum hope i single better lo, den will not lan from hse too much, esp my dad, i always think of he dont like i got any bf, hmm...but if really, i dont wan find a serious bf, coz my family is too serious d, cannnot tahan the seriousness sometimes.i seriously need to get one, my fren and i were talking about this the day before, so q~ den again, cally asked me abt why i dont study abroad since my family should can afford me, den at 1st, i thought to juz fu yan her i hav sister ma, den think think, i m not dat weida den juz tell my family actually dont focus lots on education, whats more i think study abroad need like 2-300 k, is not a small amout, den dere i tell her something,that i actually tears...luckily i m puttin a mask and she is pinching me at my pimples, so i guess if she think why my eyes wet wet, should be pain till tears ba.

take a deep breath...

my face is ill now, i think my face will get bruised later on, no face see

my cries to it

is sanctum movie that nice?i dunno..if compare i will rate not high, but why m i crying for it. i oso dunno, i cried unitentionally. no like normal, tears swirling around eyeballs but cries. is not light one, but two eyes tears and those kind of cried flu. mayb i m touched by the scene where a son hav to kill his dad to make he feel better. overall, it is a touching movie with bored starting which i almost fall asleep there. cry in cinema with tissue really my 1st time, i will remember u, sanctum. dunno is funny or fun, i feel not bad for crying in hall silently.

**and bcoz of this movie, it makes me like muscular guy more, argh~i m sick, hehe

what to do

i think i know what i want d, abt he, i m not goin to leave a gap between, fren ba coz something tell me i think too much and i m misunderstanding for something, yes i m ^^

what is valentine day to steron

i never celebrate this day for 20 years, so it contains no meaning to me but jealousy and unknown.

jealous of those ppl who hav couple, who plan to celebrate it at some place, stay together and receive gifts from the lovest and feel happy for this greatest moment.

unknown of how it is like from the the feeling of having somebody to pass through the days. i asked myself, and the answer is" of course i would like to have valentine day but that contain no meaning to me now as he wonts know what i feel and yet i wont tell. close friend we are to be since not long ago, i thin i prefer used the word 好感。 i oso dunno, but my mind tell me i should stop being too close so that dun continue misunderstood. 

seriously to tell i like to evolve from fren to closest as it will be more confident of the ppl and i know i m hard to approach but ...外强中干i would like to mean it.

valentine day.hope i can get to hav a happy in front of it for myself nex year. 被人爱和爱人是最温暖幸福de.

stop, if not i will fall

this actually is abt my feeling, the feeling of like elaborated by others, den i know i should re-organize it, like?i dont really know what it is abt but i am fear to know what it is abt, mayb~

1.50

this is a duration my mum call me and we talked, 

mum: u not sien at stpk?

me: no a

mum: u not comin back this weekend?sien den come back la

me: ya, not comin back, stayin here feel better

mum: why e?at home not happy

me: a

mum: when u test?

me: nex week

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.

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but i din tell her is nex friday coz i juz dun want to home to see ppl i dun like, to face situation that make me unhappy, seriously i feel stress at home(o feel tear-ing when saying this but seriously home now give me stress; i oso dun willing to hurt her why i feel not happy at home, eventhough i feel nothing to do here, but at least i m free to do, free to talk, free to smile. plz forgive me but i rather selfish a bit den stress at home