party or not? hmm...

a random pic of my lovely BOnnie
( never know i hav a family with 妮 too)
joke that you will know, hahaha

july is comin, mum juz asked me, do u wan to hav a party for ur big day, then i was very hectic w it, coz i feel a bit mafan of makin party. catering? and ask friends to come is like quite troublesome, coz i hav to worry will they come? do they know how to come? how they come? argh, this is so so makin me big head. then i was thinking mayb juz hav a small party among my 20-30 closer friends. problems like not goin to change? wat if exam week? what if they were all busy with their intern =( they are too too too many ideas go into my mind, yet one word appear after the ideas, that is " failure", i scare i m not "friendly" enough to call my friends come. well, this is a humilation, dont u think so?
i personally think catering is too much, and a bit kua zhang as i dont like to get myself tired with preparing stuff, yet i like to fun with my friends. i m in dilemma.
save all this thing and pass my big day quietly or not leh?
how am i suppose to call up my friends come to fun with me, instead of using "formal party"blek, i dun like so formal ^^
i wish i m rich enough to get all my friends to a vacation and hav fun together, that is juz a dream

she is in dilemma too, hahaha