there is two kind of me i realized:
when i am with fren, i can talk a lot, i can non stoply create many topics, juz can talk from the moment we meet till we leave, even feel not enuf, somemore will suggest go for some place continue talk again, that is why i like to hang out with frens
this come super different when with family, i will try not to talk, or talk in the tone that hav no interest, juz reply when asked, and stop once i answered in the shortest way, this happens very 100% true especially when he in the space, coz 99.9 % i feel the way i talk will gain his dislike and get objection and eventually scold me in the end, this is fear? i really dunno. so, when i am at home, i will hide in room, and after i go out for eg. family dinner, i will hope i can reach home asap. hmm~ sounds like a two personlity live inside me. actually, when he is not around, i will try to make a true me in front of them, talk freely with my mum and dad and sisters, actually i think only when he is in, i appear differently. well, juz used to it la ^^ not to say i dislike this way, juz feel like expressing in case i hav this Schizoid personality disorder, the another me read my blog, hahahahaa....


