无人的孤岛

i found myself was in an island, with no one else, shit my life! hav i changed or they are doin too over. my only conversation with family is o, a, en, okok i will call, whats more? no...i feel like crying in my heart coz no one understand me, other will ppl will think why i like this, blame me for my fault, den why am i still tell others, thats why i dont, instead of blaming my fault which i dont think come from me, fuck my life now, i hate everthing, actually i hope a car bang me and i die, so good, dun force me til the last end. i seriously like a dead. stayin at home will other ppl think it is a wonderful but why i dont think so, i only can feel stress at home!lookin at their face, thinking of what they thinkin oredy is tired enuf. what can fulfil me now? coz i oredy dun hav energy to argue and talk more at home. i cannot tahan of or be blamed for what i think is not wrong. calling for the solit, maxis, bank, tenaga, the steamboat dinner. what i did wrong?!if there is fairness in life, i will scold u; if there i can earn money myself instead of using urs for the past 20 years, i will scold u. for my right. what i opt for, only fairness manner and consideration, as a family what u did, in this typical home, i am voiceless. yes, of course, if i am weaker, i will definitely survive well because dominator will feel happy with the absence of me, but i am not, dun let me burst! 一拍两散. looking at their face oredy made me fed up enuf(coz their face is showing i m wrong do they know what actually they did is actually piss me off)

as a friend, dun ask me , coz only u will let me live out of my home when i saw u and get a piece of smile, yet, i will only wants to cry at home.

why other ppl think livin at home is great and i dont.