1st time i do out of rule

after watching the semi final match at picadilly of germany vs argentina and i look good at germany, finally it won without hesitation with a result of 4-0, great job of their player, esp goal keeper. geng! den i went home, not a little while, eric ask me want to go broga later, den i was shocked. i wish to go since long time ago juz dun hav the chance, den now is a good chance, but den i feel like reject him coz i promise my family to hav breakfast dimsum togather. when he said"i know what ur answer dy", means that he know that i am goin to reject him, in the context, i feel like i cannot let him hav this kind of feeling, i was undecisive till i off computer, i was still thinkin whether go or not, since it should be a fun and a chance for me go broga.den till 2 am, i was considering whether to sms him i want to go, finally i juz press send and i dun think of the consequences anymore, den i told him to meet him at 3.45 if i manage to get up. of course wake up will not be a problem , juz that i need to use that reason to back up me if i change my mind. den i was unable to get in sleep till 2.30. 3am wake up, to take bath and write a message to my mum about my unexpected and shocked trip. i know i am a bit bad but i will forgive myself as i am goin to be 20, if i still not dare to brave up myself to do some abnormal, i will regret, coz reason if i asked my mum, she sure wont let me go, esp out at 3 am and juz comeback from pj and sleep less than an hour and go to setapak. i did it, i sure do more, if not i will hav a dull teenage-adult life like he, no way! dam sien~my 1st move was succesful ^^