20岁前的话

wao, after 2day i am not 19 anymore, wat a waste, no more tenth...year old in my life
if asked me what i had done for the 19 years?hmm...still ok, but if asked me what i regret for a lot loo, i haven find a bf(guess when leh?随缘la), hav been to guai at home(do nothing that make my members scold me gao gao), hav to little trip with friends coz i love so much on travelling(taiwan, japan, hk, trip till bancrupt oso nvm), haven scold my brother(he is too ego, should hav reduce him), haven proposed to a guy before(haven the time yet), haven been to clubbin...this one very serious, coz i will think that a girl of 20 never been to club, is it very ugly?hehe, i dun wait till i am seven old eight ten only go club, i think others will laugh me till die, since my look oso not dat young, why ya, pity me hav a mature old face, sad...how good if i have longer leg and slimmer body and younger look, impossible la...birthday to me, sounds nothing to be special and i hope i can get a very memorable one but till now, i haven experience one coz memorable to me means very suprise?, ya, but hard i think...19 going to end soon, comin 20 is juz a scary ages as i can officially mean to be no more young

大出血 blood ozing day

2day i had a gathering with janell, voon and fong, den before they reach, i hav my shopping on my own, happy, coz i got a shirt from mng and after a walk, i found that lancome is havin promotion. its perfume my favourites, den after hav a survey and great persuasion by the promoter, i paid.coz she offer me many gifts, hehe...press money from maybank, paid and get. 260 i spend for the "love". no regrets,my birthday present for myself^^, den a while later, voon and janell reached, movie! ip man-the legend it borns, 2 hours, nice~ den dere dey go makan, and i went to take photo where i can took it for free after purchasing more den dunno how much. free make up, why not?hehe, queue for quite long den dere is my turn, after take pic, meet nell and take pic and home....happy

wash car in emo

i think i sot jor, coz dunno why i feel so bu shuang juz now, no reason, or...mayb the fuck up stack of assignments and tests, wash car-my solution. 45min later, mayb kena splash by the water or all energy was used, i am normal again, like the vampire at night, juz dat the active time of steron vampire is so unpredictable. ^^

病魔不可怕， 可怕的是病态

i seriously 101% agree with the above statement, illness wasn't scary but what is horry is psycho of the ill person.
i experience that juz that, mine is not illness but is money, which can be solved comparably easier than my mum.
steron case: i can cry for hours when i lost my espirit umbrella, main reason not bcoz i hav not money to buy another new one, juz that i felt wasted and regret for my careless that made me lost it, my mum was once scold me why am i so stupid, cry for that. i seriously cry terribly till like my dog died like that, i oso dunno why, is out of control.i oso understand i shouldnt coz juz small little thing but my pyscho effect just happen...
mum case: she keep on want a healthy body, she thinking why cant juz she live like a normal person, why cant juz gift her no ill, she oso knows that it isnt that serious, not cancer, not dead causing but juz out of control will keep on think that why why why?why she had to suffer?why can i so weak
2day, she cried out again, as normal i comfort her, telling her dont, but juz that emotion is what u cant control and i think that cry is a way, i doesnt stop her, juz let her hug me.my sis cried by little, she is that,i din cry coz it will bcome more terrible if few person cried togather. after hav a short walk with mum outside my hse, dere she stop and start to balance back. comeback my room, i seriously feel very press and almost cried out, u never know when a mum told u that"i know a family without a mum is such a trajedy and pity and kelian"my heart sour up...

FIFA- one of the dissapointed team

yesterday, i purposely wake up at 2am to watch semi-final, uruguay vs netherland, as under my expectation, netherlands 3-2 wins.
this morning, again i am alarmed and watch the what i thought to be a final level standard de match, that is by gremany vs spain,who knows the 1st 45 min was boring, keep on passing here and dere, germany like all slept 游魂, high possesion by spain, till seventy something minutes, GOAL but is by spain, a bit dissaponinted, i din mean to support germany coz they are both strong, but juz that germany previous performance make me think that they hav high possibility to win, who knows...striker even does not play a good job,I thought germany can play like how it defeated argentina on saturday with a excellent result of 4-1, but their speed, skill, luck, was not shown. poki made this, i dunot know.finally 1-0 end the game, spain enter final FIFA 2010.