again, my brother

my mum asked me why i hav that kind of attitude to my brother? seriously tell her if i talk nicely to him, he sure will show a brother look in future, i cant let this happen again, hence i cannot talk with him if possible, simply yes or no is enough, i know i am cruel and bad, but i cant tahan even one more words to be scold by him or instructed by him, because i am that. juz like car, which he is very expert in, got problem, i will so reluctant to ask for his help even till the car really broke i oso dun mind, if not i will say official thank you.
我也不想的， 真的很厌倦跟他吵闹， 因为眼泪会不小心落掉

thanks

thanks u guys and gals for ur concerns to my mum, i appreciate~

so smart!

i found myself so smart 2day coz my mum ask me to fetch her from taman desa and i sucessfully find a new route to jalan klang lama, hehe^^

emo monday

2day feel so emo, as usual, i dislike the first class in monday coz is fsa tutorial, where i hav to attend with all year 3 senior. the main problem is not dat but is fsa tutorial very hard, cannot understand and do at all, what we learn is not what in the tutorial, dam stress~den after macro lecturer, hav 2 hours break, den they all go makan, i on diet, juz drink my milk powder, den after dat they left me in the canteen, den feel so lonely,very bushuang, den drive to wangsawalk walk walk. thought to watch movie but den all the time cannot match my time, coz i am havin 4 clock class, den juz walk walk, still left .5 hours, wangsa walk seriously hav nothing to shop, sien den stay in a coffe shop hav some piece of bread where i hav think for so long, secret recipe cake lots of mousse, others hav many fats, drinks very sweet...den after class, go geh hse, den thought to find hh dinner but den they dun wan movie, den i felt eat with them a bit 不自在，so i choose to call robin dinner, at least i find them a better friends to talk and fun, at least i can do more freely in front of them, even watch football with them oso can i find more fun.

illness is a eveil to my mum now

u will never know when a healthy person get sick, the consequences can be how terrible, that is what happen to my mum.everyone will know to say" 看开点 又不是cancer 不会死人 不要想那么多" but do we know a healthy person who can run for 6 circles in the ground suddenly hav to see many doctor, est many medicine, how pity it is to her.i, as her daughter, do not too. ear fluid imbalance cause by unknown reason(may b viral infection, menopause pre-symptom, low blood pressure...), my mum health was not like last time, she feel worried and havin slightly of depression 忧郁症 she is juz like makan ubat like dat, it happens twice a day where excretion of hormone by brain is out of control, negative thought juz come out of mind, i asked and cared what had happened and she cant answered and juz like bit gila like dat, face expression and action very wrong and almost speak out" 我很想死掉它". yesterday, seriously hav no idea but to call my mum most caring sister, sally to ask for help and she advised me to bring her to see psyhologist, den dere i drove her.in the car, i keep drive fast to disturb her attentive mind and keep on say(in a slight scold manner), finally my water drops due to her stubborness in facing the illness. the psycho doctor, john tan, was not a perfect psycho doctor as i thought like in hongkong drama like dat, not dat pro, but mayb in medicine. no music in room, quite small, not leaning, not much of talking, but lame laughing some time. before mum gets into the consultation, she burst too, cried, but i hav no react to it, as i think crying is a way to undepress, i juz see and read my newspaper, till entering the doctor's room, she sit in front and i juz sit behind the sofa, i will think is a better way for my mum to hav a talk with him. den, take medicine for rm238 den head to sally's hse. how can i comfort her when she get stubborn and i am speechless? 烦, i will pray to the god to gift me a healthy mother. GOD BLESS.