illness is a eveil to my mum now

u will never know when a healthy person get sick, the consequences can be how terrible, that is what happen to my mum.everyone will know to say" 看开点 又不是cancer 不会死人 不要想那么多" but do we know a healthy person who can run for 6 circles in the ground suddenly hav to see many doctor, est many medicine, how pity it is to her.i, as her daughter, do not too. ear fluid imbalance cause by unknown reason(may b viral infection, menopause pre-symptom, low blood pressure...), my mum health was not like last time, she feel worried and havin slightly of depression 忧郁症 she is juz like makan ubat like dat, it happens twice a day where excretion of hormone by brain is out of control, negative thought juz come out of mind, i asked and cared what had happened and she cant answered and juz like bit gila like dat, face expression and action very wrong and almost speak out" 我很想死掉它". yesterday, seriously hav no idea but to call my mum most caring sister, sally to ask for help and she advised me to bring her to see psyhologist, den dere i drove her.in the car, i keep drive fast to disturb her attentive mind and keep on say(in a slight scold manner), finally my water drops due to her stubborness in facing the illness. the psycho doctor, john tan, was not a perfect psycho doctor as i thought like in hongkong drama like dat, not dat pro, but mayb in medicine. no music in room, quite small, not leaning, not much of talking, but lame laughing some time. before mum gets into the consultation, she burst too, cried, but i hav no react to it, as i think crying is a way to undepress, i juz see and read my newspaper, till entering the doctor's room, she sit in front and i juz sit behind the sofa, i will think is a better way for my mum to hav a talk with him. den, take medicine for rm238 den head to sally's hse. how can i comfort her when she get stubborn and i am speechless? 烦, i will pray to the god to gift me a healthy mother. GOD BLESS.