shit cny eve

i m being blame i m wrong; being scolded, i cried

do i hav to so pity to live on life like this with a brother like this?

after steamboat, and i m still at my aunt hse, my mum chat with my aunt abt her babysitter boss i would say give her full pay for her salary for the month which she only like takin care for like 20 days, den i told her “哇， 你这样也好意思收” den my mum keep quiet, den my brother said (in cantonese)" 我想一巴就刮死你" i seriously feel like sayin 来刮死我, den i said to him, i m speechless.mayb he very bushuang with me, he said你看那 你怎样教她的 .den my mum turn out and said u wrong, den i told my father, he said i m wrong too, this is my family. republic poor royal-type family. after that, i kept quiet for the time, tears drop one by one unintentionally, i seriously wan to say i wan go home, but den sure they will give face to me, den i keep quiet, texting wif lili which i think he can talk with, in the car, tears-ing oso till 10 min before home, my tears dried up. 

but i till now, i din think i m wrong coz i think it is fair to not get full pay even the ppl take leave as babysitting is a so easy job. or unless the ppl insist wanna pay full. at least my mum should try say deduct out.i dunno.

 fine. i hav no more to say w my brother anymore.

my mum always said 商量 商量 but when comes to truth, it doesnt really that.